What 'The Fall' Told Me

The message this movie sent me is never lose your imagination. While watching the movie when Roy just kept killing off all of the main characters it broke my heart and the little girls. It made me realize that without our daydreams and imagination we lose hope and drive. Whenever I daydream or imagine a thousand different scenarios of a situation that just happened to me that was much better than what actually occurred, it makes me happy. It also makes me hopeful that someday my imagination and day dreams would come true and without them I would lose hope and without hope I really would not have a purpose.

The Math of me

The three words I came up with so far are going to be broken down but this is what I have come up with so far and I am going to continue working on this math problem until I get the right formula. The one I have now seems to fit at the moment.

1. Independence
2. Determination
3. Love

Questions 1 & 2

1) You've worked on a group film and on your own. In which situation are you most comfortable - group or solo? Which do you work best in?

I find working in both to be comfortable, but I find working in a group gets much more done in a littler amount of time and you have more people to rely on if you screw up.

2) What did you learn that you expected to learn?

That you can always use more time to do something. I assumed that I was going to need more time to do what I needed to get done and if not I’d have to cut unnecessary parts of the film.

3) What did you learn that you didn't expect to learn?

Always keep track of your equipment and when you are working by yourself you tend to not be as nervous because it's only you performing for you.

4) What didn't you learn that you expected to learn?

I expected to learn where in my field of acting I need to improve after watching my film, but seeing as my footage was stolen I did not have this opportunity.

5) Praise your amazing achievement and explain your brilliant plan for pulling it off.

I did so well for having my footage and camera stolen! Instead of throwing a fit and deciding to do nothing, I handed in my script with an idea I was very proud of for attempting.

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1) How much time did you spend working?

I worked the first three days of STAC researching, writing, and filming but after my camera was stolen I handed in my script as a fallback.

2) How much time did you spend thinking about the work - sort of sitting there and staring at it, or listening to it over and over again, etc.?

Since the day we were given the assignment I had come up with the key concept of multiple personality disorder but the whole weekend we were given to figure out exactly what we were supposed to decide I kept thinking of how I would be able to pull it off.

3) How much time did you spend doing other stuff that seems like work to that make you think you're working but you're not?

I felt I did work in most of the time I was given but when I was stuck with writing the script or editing it, I would listen to Judas by Lady Gaga on replay to try and take inspiration from the song.

4) How much time did you spend socializing?

It was on and off, if someone said something funny I’d comment or say a few sentences but mostly I never stopped what I was doing to have a full blown conversation.

5) How did you use your community?

I needed someone to take pictures for the 'mug shots' in my short film and Sarah helped me out with that. Sabrina shined a flashlight in my face and played a recording of my voice because I wasn't able to do all this at once.

6) Rip apart your awful project and how did such a disaster happen?

This disaster happened because I was disorganized and thoughtless. The most important part of my film was having my camera, not having my make-up, I should have put the camera away in my bag first and then I would not have lost it in the first place. Also, because there was only one of me to do everything I needed to be everyone and do everything and this left me to be disorganized and scatter-brained resulting in the loss of my camera.

7) You've completed a step on your path. What is your next step?

I am not sure on what exactly my next step is; all I know is that I want it to be something I normally wouldn't want to attempt. My goal is to try and do everything that scares me this year so therefore I am not scared to take risks anymore.

 

Last day - intensives

I came across an unexpected catastrophic mountain in the road today. I lost/ got my camera stolen. Sucks. I lost all my footage previously shot and today I didn’t want to try to even save it for two reasons. One, I was just in a terrible mood from being irresponsible and leaving my camera somewhere in the first place. Second, I either go all the way or not all. There is nothing that I hate more then not being proud of what I am presenting and if it’s not my work I tried my best on I am not that proud of it.  As a fall back, the only thing I have left to prove I did anything is my script, which I will be handing into Luke to read. Whoop de freakin’ do. So interesting, but I am looking forward to see how other peoples projects came out tomorrow!

Day three intensives

Today, I learned to appreciate having more than just myself on a video project. The problem I ran into today was mostly because it was only me playing every part and doing everything, it took me a lot longer to do things that would normally be faster when you have more than just yourself. I am not going to be able to finish this short film and I am going to have to figure out a way to make it even shorter than it already is. I feel that I will go back to this project sometime soon BUT WITH OTHER PEOPLE CAST AS THE CHARACTERS.  I filmed all of one characters lines and three short scenes and due to lack of time realized I didn’t need the first two scenes of my short film. Hopefully I can swing filming everything tomorrow and edit it when I get home at night!

Day two of the intensive

One of my biggest problems, I feel that this project is going to come out more funny then I intend it to. I want it to be suspenseful and scary but seeing as my biggest problem is I am the only one that can be in the film, playing every character, I feel it is going to be more confusing than it under normal circumstances would. Making people laugh for me would take away from the drama I tried to create and what I am going for. Today I wrote a half-assed script for my short film. When I got home I typed it. That is basically it for today.

Day one of the intensive

Starting off today was a little bit challenging because I know in my mind that when I pick out a certain idea I usually get attracted if it's a good one. I had an idea to do some type of monologue with a character that has Dissociative identity disorder (in other words multiple personality disorder,) reason being is that I could technically play multiple characters in one its basically the coolest thing I could come up with that only includes one person - me. I also wanted to play very dramatic parts because I am afraid to do so and over the summer my motto is to do almost everything that scares me. I had this previous idea over the weekend to do a short video where one personality commits a murder and the others are completely unaware. I thought it would be cool. So today I did some basic research on DID and just made the identities/names of her multiple personalities. I also wrote down some dialogue or some actions to give me a sense of what to do when I am filming because most of it is going to be improv with a little scripting beforehand due to my lack of time, and that is all I did today.

The Seven Questions

1. What is the first creative moment you remember?

The first creative moment I remember was back in 4^th grade doing a unit on Georgia O’Keeffe and seeing her fascination with flowers. When my art teacher Mr.G was showing us the pictures of her flowers I decided I was going to paint a bunch of flowers using different textures and paints when I left that day and I did.

2. Was anyone there to witness or appreciate it?

No only me myself and I.

3. What is the best idea you’ve ever had?

The best idea I’ve ever had is producing my video on abuse last year for STAC Night.

4. What made it great in your mind?

What made it great to me is being behind the camera and seeing my vision come to life on a subject that fascinates me. Also the idea and video being so sophisticated and out of my comfort zone made it a great idea.

5. What is the dumbest idea?

The dumbest idea I had was using watercolors on an expensive sketchbook of acrylic canvases. To add to that I didn’t even decide what I was going to paint I just thought it would come to me like it did to people in the movies.

6. What made it stupid?

That the canvas was not made for watercolor so the textures of the paper made everything look bad and muddy. The part about just winging it turned into 12 pages of scribbles and blotches of paint, and then I didn’t have the patience to let it dry and proceeded to get the pages stuck together and ruin the already terrible scribbles with pieces of torn off canvas from the page above it.

7. Can you connect the dots that led you to this idea?

Being lazy is key for all of the reasons that led me to this stupid and dumb idea. One, I did not want to do any research or work off a picture of something because I was lazy and did not feel like doing any work. This idea was just my way of trying to improve my work with new paper but I didn’t do anything to prepare beforehand. I just figured that because my parents complimented my work that it was good, and because the flowers I had previously done beforehand on oaktag were freehand and that the same idea would come to me with this even though I was not painting flowers.