Monkey Tell, Monkey Tries to Do

We're all afraid of something. Today my fear was seeming fake while reading my monologue. At first while reading it I decided instead of trying to act I would just read it as I would read something aloud for English class. It came out monotone. BIG SURPIRSE. I didn't realize my fears where preventing me from getting to the desired result. After watching Sabrina deliver the monologue a few times and analyzing what I can steal from her, I realized I needed the basics such as emotion. The monologue was also very frustrating in that it had such awkward phrasing and so many dot dot dot's. Some of these needed to go because it was so choppy as Sabrina pointed out, but the main problem was with my delivery. As soon as I started acting, my face made the monologue look terrible. I tried to keep my face under control as I talked and Sabrina said it made the piece so much better. This was one of the most difficult tasks for me because as I was talking the way my voice would change and the emotion I would portray would be connected somehow. At least if felt as if that where the case. Another thing we figured out is that in the monologue there were a series of "plot points" as we called them which were crucial in delivery. If you messed up those lines or they seemed fake, so would the rest of the script. You also have to take the viewer somewhere you can't stay in the same emotion the whole time. I want to become a better actor so I can make that little voice in my head that says "you suck" to shut up.

Unfinished Works

Over the three years I've been in STAC I've written countless scripts. I've worked on so many projects and have work to show for it. The one thing that I've come to realize about myself is majority of the time I leave my works unfinished. I write script after script but never seem to make the music video, or preform the piece. Recently with the flop of my performance piece behind the sheet I have thought about my unfinished scripts. I really want to work on the piece incorporating the advise the group gave me. I also want to ask multiple people to perform in it because it would just look that much better and much more easier to understand. I want to change the piece so that instead of it starting behind the sheet it would begin with the doctors washing their hands and putting on gloves. Then after the doctors would step in front of the sheet. With using different people it will be clear there's more than who's who for example by the height difference in shadows and different voices. I am considering adding sound effects such as a beeping sound to further push that it is an operating room. I also want to take another look at my music video script. I want to see if I can make it work. It lacked flow the first time I started it. With a fresh set of eyes I want to see if I could make it flow and make sense to the audience. I also need have a clear view of what I want it to look like rather than a hazy view. If I don't know what the end product will be how will the actors or anyone else?

In other news, I am considering the possibility of making a short film every week. I want to contribute more to my 10,000 hours and keep my creative juices flowing.