Monkey Tell, Monkey Tries to Do

We're all afraid of something. Today my fear was seeming fake while reading my monologue. At first while reading it I decided instead of trying to act I would just read it as I would read something aloud for English class. It came out monotone. BIG SURPIRSE. I didn't realize my fears where preventing me from getting to the desired result. After watching Sabrina deliver the monologue a few times and analyzing what I can steal from her, I realized I needed the basics such as emotion. The monologue was also very frustrating in that it had such awkward phrasing and so many dot dot dot's. Some of these needed to go because it was so choppy as Sabrina pointed out, but the main problem was with my delivery. As soon as I started acting, my face made the monologue look terrible. I tried to keep my face under control as I talked and Sabrina said it made the piece so much better. This was one of the most difficult tasks for me because as I was talking the way my voice would change and the emotion I would portray would be connected somehow. At least if felt as if that where the case. Another thing we figured out is that in the monologue there were a series of "plot points" as we called them which were crucial in delivery. If you messed up those lines or they seemed fake, so would the rest of the script. You also have to take the viewer somewhere you can't stay in the same emotion the whole time. I want to become a better actor so I can make that little voice in my head that says "you suck" to shut up.